I neither seem to be capable of fixing this and on of that I dont really want to either, though I know its miserable like this, though so is entering the world. Nothing appeals to me. Nothing has for along time now. My lack of motivation and drive has been there even before I became like this and its only getting stronger. I worry I might be mentally disabled enough to where I can’t have my own life.

The world left me behind a while ago and it’s only getting further from me.