seriously though, i can never seem to feel happy or spirited for more than like half an hour with the help of caffiene during which i can maybe get one (1) thing done before returning to general lowness for the day. i’ve dealt with this for years and can just about get by, but like, i need a job at some point. however, as i am, i cant even manage part-time (yes, this is from experience). i don’t want to go full learned helplessness but what do u even do about this? am i stupid? hm, billions must ponder. also i’ve got to collect more nice nature picrels she so cool giwiwh
i have only been at it for a week or so, so i suppose it’ll be a matter of wait and see. however uhh… i cant exactly will myself better y’know?
Of course. You’re not actually trying to get better though, it’s delusion. Forced smiles and that kind of deal.