I fucking hate that so fucking much. It actually makes me mad asf.

Background: go to dad’s house for 2 months pre HRT- he eats fast food, fried chicken, and other bad foods. I tell dad that I want to go home, he tells me that he needs me because he’s quitting drinking. I stay with dad gain 75 lbs and twink die instantly. I have stretch marks all over my face, arms and back. I am literally fucking disgusting. I need to be killed. I want to take MAS.

Now I will never be a girl and if I do it will be an ugly one. Facial plate expansion, fat redistribution, all of these things have a permenencd effect once ur too fat. It’s basically over. Don’t expect to pass if you are fat, it’s over. I don’t expect to pass, but it doesn’t mean I don’t want to die