On the anonymous confessions… the #46 was me… I play online video games and whenever someone is sneedy and does like bridget blahaj skirt go spinny egg_irl shit i say awful awful awful disgusting things… I say “ywnbaw” I misgender i call them a groomer and just all the most awful awful things and then I always realize what im doing and I cry and cry over this… what did I do this for? To appeal to bigoted people on the server? Why would I want their respect? I remember the last time I did it… maybe 3 weeks ago… someone called me a tranny and so I started being transphobic to a sneedy profile in the lobby and so they (the rude evil people there were 2) would think I was a cisgender woman… I threw someone completely under the bus… said the rudest most evil things and for what? So that a guy saying slurs in chat would think i was cool? I dont think hes cool. I called him a pedophile… which is standby… lots of young looking animes on that profile… suspect… I dont do racist or sexist things… I dont make light of rape… I only ever say transphobic things… and its like… I dont even know why I do… someone will be named puppygirl or something and completely unprompted ill say something horrible and rude to them… im so sorry… its so awful… I need to be kinder… what if my words caused them to harm themselves? I am scared I seriously hurt them with my words… I need to be kinder to others… im sorry to all of you also… I am sorry for being rude to others…

    • DianeOP
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      2 months ago

      I dont think its okay… I was horribly rude online… people on games have made comments to me that made me cry and have to leave… I remember someone saying they would daterape me Because I was killing them over and over and they were bad at the game… it made me cry and get off the game because of their comment… I am no better then that person was… or any of the others who made upsetting comments to me… because these people just want to have fun on the game and I said “ywnbaw” and stuff like that told them they were awful and gross and they never deserved that treatment from me… I did an awful thing by saying those things… I dont think it was okay…

        • DianeOP
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          2 months ago

          There was an account with a transgender profile… and they were making jokes about sexual assault and rape to minors… I was horrified and very upset by their jokes… and so I started being transphobic to them… I could’ve called them evil and gross without being bigoted… its like fighting evil with more evil… they said awful gross things… so I reply with awful gross things… no one there is a good person… because you just spread hate… when everyone should love eachother and be peaceful and never hurt anyone… and I chose to hurt people… that one was an exception where they were evil… most were harmless… cringe at worst… and I decided to be hateful… a thing I am very much against… I did it… I was hateful… I dont think it was just a lesser moment or an incident… ive done it like 8-10 times total over the year I’ve been playing online computer games… I only started playing online games last year… I never liked playing with others until last year when I tried team fortress 2… which is enjoyed because the characters were cute and could be dressed up cutely…

            • DianeOP
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              2 months ago

              I could’ve told them off without bigotry… I feel like I dont even deserve to be here with all of you kind people… im not better then one of the evil people who hurts others… I hurt others…