Focus on women of your own race and understand that if you were white (and the genie who did it was fair) youd have an equal amount of androgenic features as now. The only difference would be a reduction of traits socially percieved as masculine that arent actually androgenic at all (hooked nose for example)

I believed this and then I saw some other black trans women’s selfies and got gigamogged to hell and back

Don’t let this happen to you.