She is also trans. Whenever I meet her she always says things like, she does not pass, I’m ugly, my life is over. I try to reassure her and do nice things like cook food for her but I do not look forward to being with her now. I feel evil ngl.
You are not evil, ms. Magical. In fact, the opposite. You are caring for a friend, and that is taking its toll on you. That is very normal. I am so sorry.
She calls me cruel sometimes however, I clearly do not help enough
You are by no means cruel. Cruelty would be leaving her to fend for herself. Perhaps none of us do “enough”, but we do what we can to help one another, and that is more than enough.
:(( that’s sad but also normal and it’s not really evil
Why are you evil you seem to take care of her
Because I try to avoid her nowadays even when I know she is struggling
You don’t owe her all the support in the world, truth is, it can burn you out in the end too. Well, depends on what kind of person the both of you are
