Why do they have to be like this. I’ve disappointed them at every step of my life, I’ve wasted so much of their money on pointless shit. They spent thousands on instruments for me to just give up on it all. I don’t treat them well, I don’t do shit around here. Why did they have to say they’ll kill themselves if I do.

what would my cats think if I never came home. I want them to be ok with that I know they’re not. Why am I such a coward