Tbh I just do not relate to what you’re saying, but that’s okay. I never disliked my own taste unless my diet was fucked. It wasn’t just a sex thing for me. I just don’t see why something perfectly edible should go to tissues, and like maybe it was also rather arousing, sure, but it’s almost besides the point I’m making. If me, rn, in my unaroused state, had a warm pre-transition quality load of mine magically appear in my hands, I would simply lick and suck my hand clean for the sake of eating it and cleaning my hand.