cross-posted from: https://tranistan.com/post/32959

I’ll be a happy girl

I like dysphoria. It makes me feel human. I have to hide my dysphoria, it makes me look inhuman. I take liking to dresses and skirts, women’s clothing. When i show, I’m told, this won’t look good on you. I live, i like, i still live. I am not a corpse, the world is bright. But how much of that reaches inside, i do not know. When i act cute, i receive disgusted stares. Yet i wish for the day, that i will happily fare. When i say i feel like a woman, I’m treated as a faggot. Hah. Hahaha. I’m a faggot in the way i see myself, and not the way they see me. The scars trailing down my face itch and burn, the bruises ache. But I’ll stand victorious, and with a grand smile; observing over a reflective blue lake.