God damn bruh, sorry ig. I know I’m 24 (almost 25) and it’s absolutely pathetic to be acting like this, but I never got any of the usual formative experiences. I was sheltered, abused, neglected, and made to be as submissive and distant as possible.
And of course, all this because a single comment calling 14-17 got to me more than it should. YES, YOU’RE RIGHT. I AM A MANCHILD, JESUS.
I get how you feel. My father was extremely verbally and physically abusive and I feel like in some ways growing up under his roof made me mature faster than kids my age and in other ways made me mature slower. I feel like some parts of my brain got stunted and even now I still have moments where, out of nowhere, my brain just detaches from reality all together. I just feel like I’m completely broken ngl.