I’m supposedly a “lesbian” but I don’t feel like I’m able to enjoy much traditional lesbian romance and media. I think part of this has to do with me not seeing myself as a “real girl” because if i was a real girl, i would be the unhinged manipulator. But I’m not. I’m weak, therefore I must be not a girl. Because girls are strong, and I am not. Thus, it’s impossible for me to project myself onto a cis woman.

How do I cure myself of this? It makes me feel profoundly faketrans. The idea of being a “submissive man” disgusts me. When I see those “big tiddy goth mommy gf” memes it makes me cringe into the back of my skull. I hate being a man, but I still can’t see myself as a woman.