i want to give them all the things my parents choose not to give me, i want to unconditionally love them, to see them grow, praying, doing everything i can to make them strong good people

but i won’t get that, if i do it will be adoption, years down the road, i castrated myself knowing i won’t ever use it,

i m glade its not even a choice, my sub human nature has been made manifest, i will never hold my baby in my arms, this isn’t the idle thoughts of a teen or a hysteric cry, it is plainly true