Too hsts and gay for agp spaces, too smart and not shallow enough for hsts spaces and too trans for the cissoids

I lack true fulfilling real life friendships, I have to mask and dumb myself down to get along with my faggot “friends” I’ve grown so far apart from them I just feel like I don’t fit in anywhere unless I take a shit ton of drugs. Everyone is just so much drama and when I’m with cissoids they’re just so fucking boring id rather be alone, even in online spaces the hsts r either complete idiots or just so fucking weird and constantly bitter and in tttt spaces everyone hates me because I’m too gay and my views r triggering. Being alone and always feeling isolated is just smth I’ve gotten used to but it’s also so comforting sometimes