not to be hecking wxke or anything, but if you’re a woman and like cute plushies and tote bags or if you’re a woman and like fps games and military history you’re still a woman. neither is better than the other in abstract, and neither will make you pass better as a woman. noone irl’s gonna look at a hon that likes barbie dolls and say ‘oh wow shes meant to be a woman’ or look at a passoid who likes anime and go ‘ermmm thats hecking problematic and malebrained’.

i can know this rationally, and i do, but ‘soulpassing’ still makes me feel better abt myself. even when i know ‘malebrained’ woman are just as female as ‘fembrained’ woman, i still feel like i have more of a claim to femininity if i am ‘fembrained’ than i would if i were ‘malebrained’. and though this is stupid and could be trained away by battling that thought wherever it appears, it’s much harder when immersed in the culture of this space and aligned spaces, where those who are lucky have the same problem as me and those who aren’t lucky aren’t aware it is a problem. that’s not to blame the culture of this space for my problems-- after all, i am not ‘immersed in culture’, i am ‘a part of culture’, as much to ‘blame’ as anyone else is. it’s less than useless to blame and more than difficult to change.

take this as just food for thought.