he never explained why, and it was only me. he still was active and talking to our other mutual friends just not me. like 5 years ago, so before i trooned too. he just randomly stopped talking to me completely.

crashed out a lot. apologized constantly for a couple weeks before giving up and just feeling completely dead inside. now i have 0 expectations on people msging me back so when i get left on read or ignored it doesnt hurt anymore.

i also got noticeably worse at msging people back myself after that too. but now i can handle being ignored because nothing can possibly ever be worse than that. so thats nice at least