i wish that kind people like them didnt have to live in pain. i wish that they didnt have to experience so much suffering and so much stress. they help me so much to endure this horror but i never manage to help them. i wish that i could at least hold them, tell them itll be ok. i love my friends, but every night i shake with fear, knowing that as i sleep, someone i love could be suffering more than they can bear. im sorry. i wish the world was kinder to all of you. i wish i was a better friend. i wish, and i love you, im sorry that ive done nothing.