i can feel an aching in my chest, a hollowness, i can’t really think straight and feel an impending doom,

part of me thinks its cause i am following the war too much, i am deeply terrified horrors r going to be unleashed on iran tonight, i have a deep love for iran, in my up bringing it was the longing of so many to return, i deeply hate the government, but know this is a war on the people and will not end well

beyond that, i just am crushed i have consumed too much anti trans rhetoric and have lost hope of ever being ok,

i don’t want to go on, the future is a hollow waste land for the lucky,