Sick today🤒 i hope im not Sick at my doctors appointment in 2 days… I still am debating what to wear… my mom is telling me to wear my new skirts and sweaters… but I am too afraid to leave the house and enter public like that… people will stare at me… ewwwww tranny… but I hate my ugly grey clothes… its one single outfit I always wear outside the home… its a grey knit sweater full of holes and tears… amd then grey jeans… I used to have skinny grey jeans I tolerated wayyy more… but they got a tear… and I can not fix denim… so now I had to buy ones that were dark grey and flared… they are so ugly I hate them… I love my new clothes… im just too scared of looking like a tranny… my clothes aren’t subtle… ive posted photos… they are vibrant patterned skirts… people will stare and judge me… what do I do? Im also afraid my sweaters are too small… the purple one i want to wear is 3 quarter sleeve… which shows scars… finding sweaters is so hard because im fat and I have long hermaphrodite gorilla arms… should I just do the purple outfit? Or should I do grey and have my mom be upset with me and also be sad with my appearance… the purple outfit could get me in trouble… yelling and such… tranny alert!! And makeup… im quite poor at it i look really clocky… but I need to use eyeliner… with and without eyeliner completely changes my face and appearance… I need to use eyeliner… lipstick is clocky… ive been told it looks bad on me… so ill avoid that…