I am like 99% sure I’ll never be happy living as a man and on a rational level I get that I should just try to efortmaxx and troon out, but there is always a retarded voice in my head telling me that I’m delusional and should try to be comfortable as I am (I mean, if someone said they need plastic surgery or they’ll never feel good about themselves, you’d probably tell them they’re stupid). This is probably related to the fact that I’m ngmi (190 cm/6"3’ tall, yay), but I’ve already tried to “just accept myself as a man” and it didn’t really work (Do I just need to try harder?), so it’s really annoying. What did you do to stop thinking this?
I think the psychological effects are immense for me. I really believe I’m a different and better person since I started HRT. I used to be very cold.
The biochemical stuff is good, stopping masculinisation is incredibly important to me. But breast growth, fat redistribution and softer skin can’t compare to the psychological improvement.