I was meant to be a respectable straight white man. I was meant to breeze through high school, go to a good college, get a respectable and high-paying job, vote Democrat every election, move to New York, find a beautiful straight white wife, raise children, and then eventually retire to a suburban home in Long Island. This is what my family and my society expects of me- it’s the path they all went down. Defying it so openly and brazenly feels…. Almost good.

I fucking despise America. Not just the United States. Yes, I hate the United States too, but I also hate America, the nation, the culture, the idea, the expectations. The growing old and dying as a straight man in the suburbs. Even if I’m a troon, at least I don’t have to live in the world I hate. (Though tbf I probably hate it so much BECAUSE i’m a troon)