“you look like you have a moustache.” And after I started crying “He’s just sad.”

She’s my cousin.

I’ve shaved 3 times already today. I broke down crying in public after. When I got back to the place we are staying, I shaved untill I started bleeding all over from my moustache. It will never be gone. I hate life idk how people cope. Just every day my family is being called he amd my deadname I’ve been out for 3 years. Idk what to do my transition has failed, and I made a scene in public, I’m supposed to go see them all for dinner later. Oh sorry for being a little cry baby, I’m just a pathetic mentally ill male who wishes he could be a woman and be treated well. I hate this game. I wish I wasn’t scared of sui, but I’ll have to keep living. I hate being a man. I try so hard I use my tranny voice and have a revealing shirt so you can see my tits and I’m not tall and fuck it will never be enough. It’d honest feedback I’m just a man and I confuse kids with my sobbing when they correctly see my beard shadow. I need to die. Actually im so embarrassed I don’t wanna see any of these ppl again. I hate looking like a man. I wish I could post a picture of my face and y’all tell me if there is any hope or if I should rope. Or what surgeries I need (that I can’t afford) if I ever hope to be happy one day.