being a bi transexal woman is the epitome of greed, i both want woman and to be one, i want men but i "chose"not to be one

but i did not choose to see the attractions in both sex nor did i choose to be trans, i did not choose ether but i made the decision to accept both

i choose not because i wanted to but because if i didn’t the pressures made me, my own nature made me- one does not follow nature, one is nature.

and to reject nature, reject self- is a rejection of everything, i dont embrace it, i dont wish it yet i chose it.

it is my sin, it is my curse, my burden to carry my nature