immediate first response is “but but you’re a tranny and that’s aaaaalways hard for people so you have an explanation”

but i’m talking relative to them, like there’s people who are trannies but are also super good at like x y or z, or they have skills “oh i can play this instrument, oh i can draw, oh i can create this”, or they have super complicated hobbies “oh i do this thing as a pastime, oh i know how to do that”, and some of these people do this shit while like younger than me too! and i’m not even that old!

i remember seeing somewhere that being a tranny means suffering (well duh) but that means that you learn from the suffering and then do great things, well then what the fuck happened to me? did i not suffer enough (probably)? is it because im just inherently a useless person outside of the 0.1% roll?

i have the mental capabilities and interests of a 14 year old boy despite being a 19 year old manmoder like wtf

  • malebrainedfinalbossOP
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    1 month ago

    i love art

    but i have the drawing capabilities of a 5 year old and no motivation to practice to improve

    most i can do is write weird stories and even then it ain’t all that good

    • RegardedPaige
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      1 month ago

      I see sry 😔.

      I wud suggest drawabox to get into drawwibg as it was recommended to me by a Wiwikyn who is an amazing artist here.

      But I’m only early stages in it. I fundamentally believe sum ppl are just blessed with innate motivation. Like there brains just have the right circuits and receptors to find life interesting and engaging.

      I end up having to force myself all the time and Sometimes it works and often it doesn’t. Sry wish I had better advice, I’m still struggling with the same

      • malebrainedfinalbossOP
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        1 month ago

        i get what you mean yeah, i completely agree on brain differences

        for me i am 99% sure i have undiagnosed adhd and it has genuinely ruined my life (see this entire post for example)

        drawabox looks super appealing on the surface but whenever i start using it i immediately feel like im actively messing up like the very first step no matter what i do and i end up always dropping after like a week

        • RegardedPaige
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          1 month ago

          I’m sorry 🫂

          Yeh I got diagnosed with ADHD full on 9/9 both types (hyperactive/inattentive) just a few weeks back.

          That’s my progress with drawabox the first few basic exercises, it was a good distraction and quite calming.

          But if it causes more frustration then yeh I get not wanting to do it more