Idk sometimes it feels like I’ve seen enough smart people texts and stuff to know how to sound like them and that’s how deep as it goes. But idk that’s just what learning is isn’t it? Lol idk. I’ve just never gotten to the point where I can type out something and not think about my thoughts as a continuation of broader traditions, a mere drop in an ocean, owing too much to my predecessors to be something that stands on it’s own. I want to push myself to put thoughts to paper that, to me, actually feel innovative. Super compliment-heavy professors and peer-reviewers make me feel weird because they come off as easily satisfied to me, if not outright academically hugboxy, cuz I’m rarely satisfied with anything I do.
How our intellect shows is all about environment. But if the results don’t lie, how can you say you’re stupid?
Idk sometimes it feels like I’ve seen enough smart people texts and stuff to know how to sound like them and that’s how deep as it goes. But idk that’s just what learning is isn’t it? Lol idk. I’ve just never gotten to the point where I can type out something and not think about my thoughts as a continuation of broader traditions, a mere drop in an ocean, owing too much to my predecessors to be something that stands on it’s own. I want to push myself to put thoughts to paper that, to me, actually feel innovative. Super compliment-heavy professors and peer-reviewers make me feel weird because they come off as easily satisfied to me, if not outright academically hugboxy, cuz I’m rarely satisfied with anything I do.