cross-posted from: https://tranistan.com/post/22852

She tells me I’m just confused and I’m making myself excuses to think I’m also a woman. Could she be right?

Can i be just craving community and to feel myself belong somewhere I’m thinking of trooning? She tells me i don’t understand what i want. Being a woman isn’t what i described?

It all boils down to how i want to wear women’s clothing when i discuss it with her and she tells me it’s normal everybody likes different types of clothing. She also tells me it’s okay and normal to feel like a woman/man sometimes and everybody has that within themselves. Could it be right? She told me all her friends have the same sort of things. Could it be right and i’m just fetishizing that part of myself to become odd and put myself in a difficult place in society because it’s something marginal and forbidden that it has become alluring to me?

I felt as if i was dysphoric yesterday but i don’t really trust myself anymore. I could just live and not care about how i look. It does feel it could be just dissociation though. I don’t trust myself anymore. She wants the best for me. But she’s too tired and stressed i don’t want to put extra burdens on her. I’m just so lost…

I know you trannies will encourage me to troon out. Please be objective i need to know what i’m dealing with i might be delusional. I really could be just fooling myself in order to be busy with something and struggle at something in life.