She tells me I’m just confused and I’m making myself excuses to think I’m also a woman. Could she be right?

Can i be just craving community and to feel myself belong somewhere I’m thinking of trooning? She tells me i don’t understand what i want. Being a woman isn’t what i described?

It all boils down to how i want to wear women’s clothing when i discuss it with her and she tells me it’s normal everybody likes different types of clothing. She also tells me it’s okay and normal to feel like a woman/man sometimes and everybody has that within themselves. Could it be right? She told me all her friends have the same sort of things. Could it be right and i’m just fetishizing that part of myself to become odd and put myself in a difficult place in society because it’s something marginal and forbidden that it has become alluring to me?

I felt as if i was dysphoric yesterday but i don’t really trust myself anymore. I could just live and not care about how i look. It does feel it could be just dissociation though. I don’t trust myself anymore. She wants the best for me. But she’s too tired and stressed i don’t want to put extra burdens on her. I’m just so lost…

I know you trannies will encourage me to troon out. Please be objective i need to know what i’m dealing with i might be delusional. I really could be just fooling myself in order to be busy with something and struggle at something in life.

  • Tamara
    5·
    5 days ago

    She’s wrong, she’s so wrong. Cis people never think of being trannies other than as funny thought experiment. The only reason why your dysphoria isn’t bad yet is becuase you’re kid - imagine yourself as a hairy, wide-chested male with huge hands able to fully cover woman’s face - that’s when dysphoria will kick in, it will be too late. Don’t care about putting burden on her, your well-being is infinitely more important. She’s your mother after all? She should be the one doing sacrifices for you, not other way around.

    • BasedandtrollpilledOP
      3·
      5 days ago

      I am a hairy, wide chested man with large man hands though. My face has become more “mature” as my mother calls it. I hate how it looks, i wanna go back to the years when i was 16. My hair fell out. It’s so shitty. I’m even scared I’m just deluding myself rn because i don’t feel any emotions rn. As for what I felt yesterday, probably i just got used to the shitty emotions so much i think they’re normal :(

      • Tamara
        2·
        5 days ago

        Get on DIY asap, save yoursel, girl. Body hair will fall out, hair on head will grow back if it fell out less than few years ago, and body isn’t as bad as it can be yet. It will be better to be safe on DIY - doctors don’t care about you masculinising further, most of them are fine with patients waiting until it’s too late. You will be able to easily switch to legal E at any time if available.

    • BasedandtrollpilledOP
      2·
      5 days ago

      I think to myself, can i live with myself if i masculinize even further? I don’t know. If it’s bugging me now it’ll probably get worse…

      • Tamara
        2·
        5 days ago

        It will. I was in your boots - managed to hold it only for three years until I broke and had total mental breakdown about not transitioning sooner.