Cross posted from https://tranistan.com/post/638

had hope in the past pre-puberty that i’m now working towards reclaiming no matter the cost (gray matter)

diy estrogen

pioglitazone

human growth hormones

pioglitazone + gh made my hips 7cm wider (29,5 cm > 36,5cm) (“i won” - breaking bad s4e13)

lied about being sick so that i wouldn’t have to go to uni, but actually i was just sad and dysphoric (fugue state)

blood tests

regularly get electrolysis needles pushed into my face

piracy for everything to save money for surgeries (i make the rules)

no one has any idea how dark and twisted my mind actually is, i literally listen to f4f asmr every single night when i go to sleep. sometimes i’m literally interested in sex.

secretly manmoding without any of my peers having any clue of my woman double life

i watched breaking bad when i was 13 and really enjoyed it

my cister thinks i’m deeply unwell and tells me to stop posting on “that forum” that i sometimes bring up to her, but i wont stop

hardcore surgerymaxxing including clavicle surgery

taking advantage of the swedish ubi for students program without caring much about my studies because i’m too mentally ill to rn

i have no reason to live anymore other than transitioning and hopefully looking like a woman in the future

i wear glasses too