Oh my god dysphoria is back, how could i ever think i was a larping moid??? I hate the way my face developed into this… perfectly male form. I hate how my hair fell out. I hate how my face became this ugly. I hate it. Hate it. It was fine when i was a teenager i actually looked pretty and nice and not this moided masculine deformed form. What the fuck am i? Fuck fuck i think I’m having a panic attack my chest feels tight. Fuck how can i ever live with myself? It’s irreversable!!! I wanna cry so much but i can’t it just doesn’t start. I think I’m scared, what the fuck do i do now?
What if it doesn’t work what will i do then? I wanna have kids too it’ll make me infertile i’m in such a bad spot time is running out testosterone is raping me further. I can’t even get injections in my country i have to go abroad and smuggle them in i have to wreck my body to have any hope to feel in peace now i hate it i hate it
freeze your sperm, but you really need to start as soon as possible. cross bridges when you get to them, okay?
My shitty fucking country doesn’t permit sperm freezing :( what do you recommend i do? Should i go to Germany or something to freeze it? Do they serve non-nationals?
maybe… but I don’t know.
Alright… thanks nonetheless…