Oh my god dysphoria is back, how could i ever think i was a larping moid??? I hate the way my face developed into this… perfectly male form. I hate how my hair fell out. I hate how my face became this ugly. I hate it. Hate it. It was fine when i was a teenager i actually looked pretty and nice and not this moided masculine deformed form. What the fuck am i? Fuck fuck i think I’m having a panic attack my chest feels tight. Fuck how can i ever live with myself? It’s irreversable!!! I wanna cry so much but i can’t it just doesn’t start. I think I’m scared, what the fuck do i do now?
I thought i was agp until now, i hate myself. It was the antidepressants that took my dysphoria away, now i see. I should’ve stayed a normal guy, why did i have to become a tranny i hate e myself somuch