I am always on drugs. I don’t know how to live life without them at this point. My therapist is trying to send me to a rehab that is being sued for 30 sexual assault cases. Honestly, if I weren’t going broke, I would not care at all about getting sober. I don’t plan on being sober sober, though, just not addicted to painkillers. Being trans and an addict is a horrible combination when looking for therapists, lol.