/>be me, />ngmi hon />women flinch when i make somewhat sudden movements />6’1 36” underbust 34” waist />start hrt />205lbs so probably a good idea to start dieting />eventually get down to 190, yay! />few weeks later back to 200 />ok fine i wasn’t putting in as much effort it’s fine />month later back to ~190 />cycle continues />tell myself it’s ok bc “weight cycling” />ffw to recently />approaching 8 months on hrt />very little weight has been cycled />i could get away with boymoding to the pool i look the exact same />fuck i’m always going to look the exact same />decide i might as well fatmax bc it’s my only shot at passing even slightly />back up to 205 />awesome />check again after gorging everyday />200

can’t believe i thought weight cycling could fix me. i will literally be a mildly overweight tranny freak for the rest of my life.