add dht cream and minoxidil for beard growth and then i have like 10 dht blockers for skincare so i dont look like a spotty freak. why as a man do i care about that? i dont know. am i hyper focusing on minor looks improvements so i can ignore the fact i am dickless? yes. does that matter? no -ish. its all cope. strongest testosterone dose, dht gel, minoxidil, highly considering hgh because it naturally occurs in natal men and not myself. then when i have it whats next? what minor problem can i fix then? im pretty sure ill be employed in some shitty underpaying job soon too just to give myself some sense of purpose… im in uni that should be my purpose yet i cant find the spirit to actually care about anything whatsoever… trying to convince some richoid to start homebrewing with me… trying to design and mass produce a reasonably cheap stp that doesnt leak everywhere because even the $$$$ ones do… i spend too much of my time hand holding youngshits and insuranceshits into getting their shit together too. why is srs only achievable if i exploit myself financially. why did i make friends and now finally care about this dying rock of a country i live in. i guess im afraid to be isolated again but thats just pure weakness. that and white hot anger at the politicians with the audacity to make their lives hell.