I have a flat fucking chest I feel sick to my guts it’s like I’m stuck with this sinking feeling, being stuck in the deepest pit of dread. It’s like my chest was mutilated by top surgery except I didn’t have top surgery because it would be pointless to do top surgery anyways because there’s virtually no breast tissue to remove. I want to smash my fucking head into the wall until I stop feeling. There’s no end to living with an androgen-poisoned body. First mistake was repping, second mistake was being vunerable where my mom forced me off HRT for months. Oh god I want to shoot myself