going on as a neet sounds miserable

So is just finding full time work and having to work normally

For what anyways. Likely living paycheck to paycheck and much less free time, though its not like I do much with my Unlimited free time anyways

Its just living long enough for your body to betray you even more than it has, the world just sucks and is cruel anyways

I mean obviously Im depressed, meds dont seem to be doing much though

I want to want to be alive but its just so fucking mundane.