if a cissoid knew there was a 1/1000 risk they’d die when opening the front door tommorow, they’d freak tf out
i am going to kms if i dont pass after everything. thats a fact
thats why im unstable and miserable
ok but a lot of people go through surgeries with 1/500 death rates and theyre not nearly as doomy
despite being suicidal i have severe thanatophobia, so i feel extremely strongly about all this.
ocd and cptsd too.
I empathise a lot with you. There are words such as suicidophobia or suicide ocd that may or may not help better define what you’re going through
The thing is that it doesn’t do anything to be anxious about it because you will find out anyway. You have a clear schedule of the procedures you will receive and you know that once they’re done you will know whether you pass or not. Then you can decide if you want to rope or not. You panicking now will not change the outcome at all.
if a cissoid knew there was a 1/1000 risk they’d die when opening the front door tommorow, they’d freak tf out
There’s always some dumb shit that can kill you, an aneurysm can basically kill you any living second. You can also get any kind of cancer whenever. Some senile boomer who shouldn’t drive anymore but still does can end you whenever you leave the house. Life itself is a 100% lethal condition. You write about offing yourself often, but accepting the constant chance of death instead of fearing it will make you truly free.
cissoids are too stupid to understand numbers actually
