this is genuinely so pitiful to say outloud but wtv, chainsaw man has been one of my fav pieces of media for a long time and there were very dark parts of my life where i simply orientated my sense of time around living until the next chapter release, i loved csm so much and i feel like ive had my heart broken by my first love, actually i was less sad then vs now so its even worse than that, i feel so pathetic for attaching so much of my sense of self to this series, if this ending hit while i was in that even worse state 2 years ago i prob wouldve seriously attempted due to the loss of my main coping mechanism