id just repeatedly tell myself im simply a delusional estrogenized faggot, its better than boymoding bc at least i can indulge in some degree of femininity rather than pure repping and i can actually function socially without being a total freak like if i honmoded

like atp i feel like its either this or detrooning as i dont want to keep living with this stupid hope that one day im gmi as this hope has genuinely just been a source of continued misery, the wildcard option ofc being roping but im not selfish enough to do it atm