“tired” is the one and only emotion always keeping me company

I’m not always sad, I’m not always lonely, but I am always tired

I wake up in the morning tired, I go to school tired, I get out of school tired and I go home tired. even if I stay at home all day, I am still tired. even if it’s the best day of my life, I’m still tired

and it’s such a horrible tiredness. it’s not just some minor fatigue, I feel tired in every bone, every inch of skin, even in my brain

I wish I could sleep forever. not in a suicidal kind of way, I just want to rest