just yesterday I went out in public and passed, and now I feel completely unsalvagable. and not even just physically—I’m seeing masculinity in everything I do, everything I say, everything I think.
maybe it’s just being online. I think I need to take a break, but I have no self control
or maybe it was just pity passing, or the way I was dressed, or the fact that the only person to explicitly gendered me was old and that every old person sees long hair and thinks “woman”
you can tell yourself whatever, ultimately your experiences matter more than my opinion. but ive never passed to anyone irl and i also have long hair but get exclusively called sir
hmm maybe maybe
sorry for being annoying