I need to buy an electrolysis machine and muster an iota of courage and “fuck up” my arm fr for pre phalloplasty because that shit too expensive from private clinics and I pretend im not a total coward by booking appointments to “observe” how they do it irl to get a better feel when in reality im just being a fucking faggot about it all. I need to save up and I need to just diy instead of being lazy and incompetent fml. Fuck.