I honestly hate my sexuality so much and not if my sexuality could lead being clocked because of my shoulders (43cm), I also disgusted with my self because I’ll never be real lesbian and I’ll never get their freedom and it will always be seen as wrong and disgusting for it. I can never hook up or date a lesbian on a whim because I would eventually have to out my self or get called rapist because I’m trans and didnt out myself. They could easily ruin my life by outing me to all my friends and work. I just feel so ashamed and I feel so wrong I just want to seen as real woman and trannies arnt allowed to be lesbian lest they be seen as predators and I want to not feel so robbed of my life knowing I’ll never be real lesbian and I’ll never have the freedom of a cis lesbian. Also I feel like if I knew any lesbian that was transphobic I would make them feel shit as humanly possible and call them a faggot and a creep and they wrong.

That place comes from resentment real lesbian arnt even hated by society and feel completely fine, and I’ll never be free like them.