I sometimes think that I just can’t do more than this. I shouldn’t try and at times I don’t even feel all that bad about being a neet itself. I have income from disability but of course its not enough to do anything big with but I can buy things I want and such. But…

I live in an exurban area of a red state, it is not a good place to be, even before I realized I was trans. My parents I don’t enjoy being around too much but its somewhat tolerable and it really could be worse. These places are just miserable. If I want to get out I just have no choice but to fully re-enter the world and give everything a real shot, despite the fact I really don’t think I can handle it.