I was getting really upset and I started to hit myself and I think my old male ego just took over and made me stop? He started giving me positive affirmations and there was like this weird struggle between me and him for control of the voice in my head… told me that I’m beautiful and so strong and that he’s sorry for all the awful things I’m dealing with right now. He started to like, lose control/fade out and he said he loved me and he was so proud of me and then I was back. I’m lost. I’m worried. I don’t wanna be even more insane than I already am. This sucks.