Being within earshot of cis women while they talk of their sexual escapades, wishing I had the opportunity to do the same (even though a lot of the guys they were talking about sounded like shitheads). To be able to just ENJOY YOURSELF casually.

It’s not even just cis people, the more gynephillic, sapphic poly trannies seem like they’re fucking constantly! I can’t say that I’m not jealous. That’s never been me, I’ve never been able to let loose, and I’ve always fucking hated my body since I became cognizant of what I looked like. Just fucking sucks so fucking bad. I can’t let myself fucking die like this.