I won’t ever 100% pass, neither as cis nor neurotypical. I probably won’t bother to change documents and stuff unless needed. Socially I will always be this weird girl-boy-thing, hopefully leaning more girl given time. I will have reasonable material conforts, not much, but probably about the same as today, give or take end of the world. My family will treat me basically the same as today, perhaps some will call me by my chosen name. People will occasionally be disrespectful but I probably won’t get hatecrimed at least. I will feel bad but I won’t correct anyone. I will marry my gf and accept our divergences. I will always be a loner but I will always have one or two friends at any given moment, they will drift away and be replaced but I will have accepted this as part of life. I will keep my current job or something similar, finish my current college uneventfully. I will keep pedalling everywhere, perhaps I will make myself a slightly better bicycle. I will listen to more or less the same music, consume the same stuff in general. Maybe I will have a nice hobby like beekeeping. Just like today, I will have horrible days where I think of ending it all, but also good days that make it worth it. I will never be a normie but I will learn to take pride in it, instead of longing for something that’s not meant for me.

Eventually I will age into something in between “weird uncle” and “cool aunt” and eventually I will die as quietly as I lived.