1. I was raped when I was young

2. I’m autistic

3. I’m attracted to trans women (I’m a chaser)

4. When I was saying I was a trans girl and active in Transmed discords, I had met a trans woman and I loved her, and then she killed herself, and I loved her so much, and so I have to keep pretending to be trans or it feels like I’m insulting her memory

5. I’ve been active in a lot of trans spaces from time to time and now it just feels like I’m one of you

These factors combined have pretty much made me into a faux tranny