i know my brain like removed my ability to access my memory so i wouldnt kill myself but it went too far and now i lack any extrinsic memories and cant make any but like i cant exactly hate it because it saved my life or whatever and if i had my memories and stuff it wouldnt really be “me” because now i’m multiple because my stupid shitty brain fragmented itself permanently and for my own sake it wont let me remember why that is other than vagueposting it through dreams and feelings like what the fuck brain “What did he use?” what does that mean why did you say it why does it distress me so much i cant know what it means but i know it means something stupid vagueposting brain okay i need sleep this is a ramble