i’m too much of a coward to kill myself, i’m too much of a coward to do anything of importance. it’s the real reason i haven’t gotten on diy or came out or exercised or done anything to actually save myself, not money or any other reason but because i’m a worthless lazy coward. i don’t want any sort of consequences or ramifications of any real decisions that i refuse to make by putting them off, i want to die and disappear without anyone noticing or caring