well, detransition then. I know everyone thinks its cringe but whatever. Its alright.
that wouldnt really fix anything, i also dont want my face to masculinise or facial hair to come back
fix what? you say your life was better before? then go back
I cant just go back though, i know different people now than when i was 18, i have different relationships and responsibilities now than i was 18, my body will just never look the same as it did when i was 18 (and aging on t would also be not good probably). like its not that simple going off e wouldnt send me through a time machine, my life is just different now it wont ever be the same
well maybe its not about the transition then. no one can go back in time
its partially transition tbf if i could magically get the body i had when i was 18 back i would, i didnt like it then either but it was way better than it is now + a lot of my problems wouldnt have happened if i didnt transition even if theyre not literally transitioning
its meaningless to ponder over what-could-have-beens. cut ys slack. if we could know the future, world wouldn’t be the same. and also you could have different problems
idk i dont think theyd have been this bad
Were you happier though? Did you like yourself? I think this is something a lot of trannies go through. I lost my family and a lot of my friends to transition, which coat me my opportunity to go to college, which kinda fucked me up, like objectively now my life is worse, but im still happier now, to put it in a sneedy way, im living my truth
no i was considerably happier back then, hell i even think i hated my body less pre e
Did you like yourself?
no but more than i do now
