yaaa that thought is basically in my mind every second of every day… every trans woman around my age is so pretty , even if they don’t pass. i just got so unlucky w/ my bone structure. idk i think i still might have a chance w/ dating older people but im not sure…

oh ya i guess so , sorry

um how?

i’m saying that you shouldn’t want to be loved

obviously i don’t blame people for this either , but it is like objectively a bad trait to have. i this is really more important if you’re upset about not being loved , like it’s just an incorrect goal to have , u shouldn’t be bugged by it

woa i’m in a similar situation … although it’s online , and idt he’s that dominant , and also he doesn’t care about me that much , and i look like a man (which he would hate , rn he probably thinks i look like regular twink)

anyways he’s so amazing 😭 i only get to talk to him maybe once or twice a week now , i miss him so much

idk , it makes me happy to read about ppls relationships. i know it’s not attainable for me , but like idk … i wouldn’t really be jealous of a story character who could fly , it’s kind of the same concept. like it’s not even worth comparing myself to anyone in that position bc they’re so much better and luckier than me

i know of a few ways u can forget , but they also involve forgetting most other things too

ohhh my god how can people be born w/ such short philtrum+midface combinations 😭😭😭

my eyes r literally less than one eye-length apart too why do i not just kill myself

omg me 2 😖

although it’s really only when i’m not eating and am getting weak/fainty . it probably hardly even counts as schizophrenia TBH

i will see like, very large spiders the size of a dog in the corner of whichever room i’m in , and they’re like pure shadow , and they will jump at my face then disappear

i’ve never rly gotten anything commonly associated w/ schizophrenia like hearing voices and stuff tho…….sorryyyy

TBH idc what the people i’ve hurt think about me. i feel guilty for my own improvement , like it’s just the right thing to feel. i’m surrounded by rly good people who r just too forgiving

( i would like it if one of those people wanted to hurt/kill me tho . although i’d still probably refuse bc that would likely end up traumatising them )

rly cute picture !